Uncertainty

It's been a while, and the further I take myself, the shorter the distance gets.
I flow and flow; I'm a river of molten lava in a crystal drop of nothingness.

I was sitting down, watching TV as I tried to pin down the pain in my chest and as I was wrapping it around my finger I suddenly realized I had completely detached from my soul... I tried to get back to it, but my pain dragged me through the universe.

It's just past midnight, and it feels like I've lived for a 1000 years. I can't find my pain; I can't find the pleasure of swimming through the emptiness.