I feel my mind racing from thought to thought, speeding faster than light taking me from our discussion of last week to our huge fight 10 years ago.
Going over and over what I said and what you didn't understand, what I couldn't see, and what we didn't appreciate enough to realize we were never alone.
What if?
- I had said it differently?
- I had done this or that?
- I hadn't done this or that?
- I was not me?
The blame, and guilt, the fears and everything staring right at me like vicious monsters staling my weaknesses.
I feel it now, its fingers wrapped around my soul.. squeezing it tighter as I feel it bleed through my eyes. I am scared of being alone.
Going over and over what I said and what you didn't understand, what I couldn't see, and what we didn't appreciate enough to realize we were never alone.
What if?
- I had said it differently?
- I had done this or that?
- I hadn't done this or that?
- I was not me?
The blame, and guilt, the fears and everything staring right at me like vicious monsters staling my weaknesses.
I feel it now, its fingers wrapped around my soul.. squeezing it tighter as I feel it bleed through my eyes. I am scared of being alone.
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